[TheScrungler]

The search function sucks. And I might misremember peoples nicknames etc... Easiest way is to arrange by post count and then see what the most popular long threads are, often those have the best information. A lot of good stuff is in the HRT subforum.

Girl, don't worry about your weight  Look, I'm about 179cm tall and I weight over 130kg currently. I was at 92kg before transition and I was taller. If you're feeling too fat, then what am I, a landwhale? xD lol. Seriously, try not to get your body image messed up due to a number on the scale, that's a certain way to self sabotage and possibly ED. I narrowly avoided eating disorder in my teens because I was gaslighted like crazy and bullied for my weight and I've been always sturdy built. I blame drumming and bike rides and swimming, later weight lifting etc. There's always +20kg of invisible weight on me and I can't make it magically go away.

People often forget about the way they're built when staring at the scale or BMI. And the expectations to be rail thin are ridiculous, especially for women. 

I would say cycle at least 5kg up and down to make it actually do something. Small fluctuations in weight wont do much anything as those happen naturally all the time anyway. Its up to you if I want to even try weight cycles, its just a well known to work method.

I would put on 40kg if it would mean i could look like you in a heartbeat!! I just don't think my body look good heavier  I wish it did. maybe I'll try putting on 5kg and report back.

I'll try searching that way, thanks.