[Heaven's Night]

I didn't think there would be a need to post here anything, but there's something needing to be addressed.... BN is definitely not a safe space when I get so much lies told about me, fingers pointed, all kinds of projection and broken logic applied only for trying to get me mad about stuff, or feeling bad about myself.

With all due respect and dignity, this behaviour has not an ounce of either, nor is it adult behaviour.

I've seen your posts to others though, and your namecalling and swearing abuse is just too much. Maybe that's why the transwomen have left?

What abuse? I'm just calling them out as they behave. This is delusional. Majority of trans women who used to post here were here before I even registered on the forum. That was back in March 2019 and this forum has existed originally since around 2004 soon after Nexus started out. First as a subforum, and later as a separate one.

You hate men, you said so in many places.
You've internalised misandry.

I don't hate men. But I will not tolerate idiotic men trying to tell me who and what I am and how trans- and intersex women should be like, what language to use and how we're supposed to be treated.

You're not exactly making my view of men any better you know. All my bullies, abusers, a rapist and a pedophile who I narrowly avoided back in the day were men. Imagine that, how could it be? I must be lying and no man ever wronged me. I have suffered greatly in hands of men, but I'm not shouting about it from the rooftops all the time. Maybe this is me shouting about it how much of a victim I am? But you wanted to know why I'm not bowing down to idiotic men.

I have plenty of awesome men in my life, if I didn't I would likely hate them all. 

You think everyone is out "to get you", so you backlash.

This is pure delusion, I have no idea where this came from.

The forum, to me, is for biological men (however the fuck anyone wants to define this) who do not have breasts that want to have breasts. That's the base. Feminisation etc also comes into it as side aspects.

Fuck off with the dogwhistle! And this is basically saying that anyone not a "biological man" should leave. What is a biological man? I bet you can't figure a definitive answer tot that. This forum is for diverse bunch of people. Have you realised that there are a lot of LGBT+ people here? Or are you all Quislings who throw trans and intersex women under the bus? Huh?

Forum for biological idiots.

The whole thing of "this is just for transwomen" or that men are evil not to be trusted etc is just BS.

I do not know where this cama from, I have never said anything of sort. 

You are quick to temper, quick to swear at forum members and become abusive to them, and when you get called up on it, you play the victim. Seriously look up Narcissistic Personality Disorder, and the works of Dr Ramani.

Yes I am because I'm passionate about certain issues and I'm a Karelian. I do not abuse anyone, that's lie. You're projecting with the narcissism. I know about cluster B disorders quite well and I do not meet diagnostic criteria of any of them. I have dated two women for a long time, one of whom had diagnosed BPD but likely met criteria of NPD also, the other was a similar case but didn't have any diagnosis as she masked well. They both were at least sociopathic or even psycopathic, both were manipulative and violent and downright evil. They knew exactly what they were doing. I've also had people in my life who had DID and my fiancé has a mild form of BPD, I'm well aware and in the know about these personality disorders.

If you absolutely need to know about my medical information, I do have some narcissistic traits but so do almost everybody. For example I absolutely love positive attention as I'm dopamine deficient due to neurodivergence and positive attention is like a drug. Also I have developed healthy self love in several things as I know I'm good at stuff I do, I'm excellent drummer and multi talented in music and art and I'm also damn hot and pretty enough so that artists want me to model for their work. I can absolutely pat my own back on these things and be a bit narcissistic about it. But that's not a disorder, that's healthy self love which I wish everyone had as its great for confidence and people will feel attracted to that shine.

I'm not your friend, and I'm not your enemy. I'm just someone that MIGHT be trans, was born a male, and is trying to grow boobs and see how I feel about myself and whether eventually I might want to transition in the distant future.

And I'm not yours! Be what you are, but I'm going to ignore you after this. I just need to bring out the fact how BN is not a safe space and trans women should be aware of it.

Right now on the forum, the moment someone is trying to explore what "trans" means FOR THEM, they get bombarded by guidelines defined by *someone else* as to how or if they are trans. This should be a personal exploration on a spectrum.

No one did this, I have no idea what you're talking about. Why are you cis men always so pissed off about "rules" that exist only in their minds? or what ever... Anyway, no one is trying to shove anyone in tight boxes, except for genital obsessed bigots who are trying to keep telling how trans and intersex women are somehow not who they are, or that sex transition is not reality etc.

What I want to see: is forum members being treated with dignity and respect, regardless if there has been any past problems between members. We are grown adults and should be able to agree to disagree.

Are you treating me with dignitiy and respect? Are you worth dignity and respect? The subjects of this thread are not matter of opinion...

When you write about your personal experience, or scientific topics, you are gold. When you get in arguments with others, you are not. If you value this forum and what it's trying to achieve, you will seriously consider how it is that you come across on the posts.

Every time I write about trans and intersex rights, terms and language, transmisia, intermisia and misogyny on the forum, I get attacked by bunch of tiny brained men and genital obsessed bigots.

Yes I know I'm good at this, I'm breaking records on growing boobs, figuring out new ways to help it andhow to game hormone functions to our favour. I feel like I'm the one carrying to flag about all things Lotus has figured out as she's not able to keep posting so someone has to do it. Think about that when you make up lies about me and point fingers at me.

I'll be more mindful of posts from -- and --, although I can't say I've noticed anything specifically wrong with their posts at the moment.
Again, I'm not your friend, and not your enemy. Just a stranger trying to keep the forum together and alive.

You can have your clique all you like, I do not care as I will have every shithead here on ignore who aren't worth my time. 

With due respect and dignity, I'm not your friend either. Have a nice day.