21-01-2026, 12:10 AM
(15-01-2026, 05:06 AM)PerkyAcups Wrote: Stevenator, you and I would probably enjoy drinking a few beers together. I am into motorsports, but two wheels. I rode motocross and enduros for years. Work in the powersports industry. I raise cattle.
Even after being off PM for over a year these feminine urges keep coming back stronger. I don't know if I have subconsciously always had these urges or if NBE rewired my brain. I don't plan on going back on PM or HRT. For now I am going to settle into a new norm of panties and fully shaved under my normal male clothes.
I can relate a lot to this thread. I tend to do cycles of PM/Estrogen/PG/RR/WP/etc and take breaks regain my 'manliness'. For me, it is an all or nothing type of thing. When I am on my 'program' it is "Vana" on the loose and in control. I shave everything from my eyebrows to my toes, wear panties 24/7, plucking and shaping my eyebrows, and lotion up everyday with my special feminizing brew of extracts. I'm not into cross dressing, but exploring it at times. Even my workouts change to be more shaping than building muscle.
When I am off my program, I revert back male very quickly, except for the breasts, hips, and butt. Within a couple weeks, my chest/nipples loses sensitivity, my lifting strength quickly returns, sex drive skyrockets, and really enjoy feeling manly again. All is good, but I am still counting the days until I go back on "my program". I have had addictions in the past, and this feels somewhat like I an addiction, but I seem to be able to control it for the most part.
It's amazing how fast my body responds to E. Within a couple days, my chest feels heavier, nipples more sensitive. Within two weeks my skin is softer ( especially my inner thighs for some reason ) and much more calm and sex is out of this world. I continue with my program months until I lose the sexual thrill that it brings me, then it's back to male mode to recover.
I view M vs F as a spectrum where I range from solid male, to leaning female. Through all the on/off (more on than off) I do have a solid B-cup and curves that don't look quite normal on a guy.
Like Perky, even when off my program I have become comfortable wearing panties, shaving smooth, skin care, and embracing my female side. 5 years ago, I would have laughed if you told me this.