16-01-2026, 02:37 PM
Heavens Night, first off let me say that you have an AMAZING pair of breasts, and as much as I admire them, not sure I am going that big.....but Honey...you are an inspiration to be sure. And you are a beautiful woman. I can only hope that my transition will be as successful.
Now, what's more important......is it cheating to say that they are as equally important to me? I honestly can't exist without my best friend and soulmate AND I do not want to stop my transition.....I can't pick one over the other. NEUTRALITY I know.....not an answer I know. But it is exactly how I feel. I feel there is a glimmer of hope as she does appear to, at least, not be put off by what little growth I have and the fact that my nipples are somewhat sensitive (again, she says she does it for me because it brings me pleasure......sorry for the big share....don't mean to offend or get R rated..lol!) And she calls me beautiful (for a man) which, wow, does something to hear that.....a small bit of emotional validation. The problem is that she was emphatically clear 2 years ago when I cameout to her, that she could not accept it and she was not a lesbian ( a valid point, however, at this pont in my life I am not planning to have any bottom surgery, which I don't think will make any difference to her as if , in her eyes at least, I am 99% woman with male genitalia). I can obviously justify in my own mind, me being a trans woman with a penis, as I want to still be intimate with her but can she transition to that reality. That is the $64,000 question.
Here is the kicker, I am and always have been family-centric, yet, the only person that I fully care about accepting me ( I do care about the rest of the family), the only one I can't live without is my wife. OH, MY, MY ,MY.....what to do...what to do.
As I reread all this, it strikes me that this is somewhat of a rhetorical post, as there really isn't any answer other than what I choose to do.
Now, what's more important......is it cheating to say that they are as equally important to me? I honestly can't exist without my best friend and soulmate AND I do not want to stop my transition.....I can't pick one over the other. NEUTRALITY I know.....not an answer I know. But it is exactly how I feel. I feel there is a glimmer of hope as she does appear to, at least, not be put off by what little growth I have and the fact that my nipples are somewhat sensitive (again, she says she does it for me because it brings me pleasure......sorry for the big share....don't mean to offend or get R rated..lol!) And she calls me beautiful (for a man) which, wow, does something to hear that.....a small bit of emotional validation. The problem is that she was emphatically clear 2 years ago when I cameout to her, that she could not accept it and she was not a lesbian ( a valid point, however, at this pont in my life I am not planning to have any bottom surgery, which I don't think will make any difference to her as if , in her eyes at least, I am 99% woman with male genitalia). I can obviously justify in my own mind, me being a trans woman with a penis, as I want to still be intimate with her but can she transition to that reality. That is the $64,000 question.
Here is the kicker, I am and always have been family-centric, yet, the only person that I fully care about accepting me ( I do care about the rest of the family), the only one I can't live without is my wife. OH, MY, MY ,MY.....what to do...what to do.
As I reread all this, it strikes me that this is somewhat of a rhetorical post, as there really isn't any answer other than what I choose to do.