3 hours ago
Good Day Everyone,
My name is Billie, I am 60 years old and a LOOOOONG time lurker (lurker...it sounds so creepy doesn't it......let's use "vicarious learner" instead )! LOL! Anyway, I have utilized FG, PM, RC, REISHI off and on over the years and have a "little" growth. I have used supple nips....they did bring on some decent increase in nipple size, both protrusion and circumference. Increased sensitivity a little as well, which I love, and want it to increase even more. I want to touch them all the time and my wife seems to like them as well, although she claims she does it for me and my pleasure but she does seem to enjoy it too.
I just received my prescription of estradiol valerate,. 3 ml injected subQ once a week. Took first shot on Tuesday. It's Thursday and darnit.....no growth yet, no hips, no butt.......lol......just kidding of course. But seriously, can the E be supplemented with herbs or PM, and if so, what works best?
For transparency sake, I got my first prescription of estradiol a few months back, .3 ml injected subQ. Took 1 dose and freaked........threw it all away. Why? Because I am, and always have been a woman......known since 6 years old. But back then, no term for it and no tolerance for it. So I hyper masculanized......sports, military, construction.....anything and everything to battle this civil war going on inside me. It worked a little, for a time. Got married, had 5 kids and have 3 grands....decently successful career. My wife of 30 years is my absolute best friend and soulmate. And when I say she adores me and I adore her, I am not being hyperbolic. We have the kind of marriage that is almost fairy tale. We have weathered so, so much. I would like to think come hell or high water we can weather this. 2 years ago I dropped the nuclear bomb on her about my gender dysphoria and it almost ended us. I agreed to go to counseling but it did not help, although I told her it did. I compartmentalized it, hid it. But it is RAGING INSIDE ME. I feel as if I will exlode sometimes but I CAN'T LOSE HER but I CAN'T NOT LIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE AS A WOMAN! I am not Suicidal, but I don't want to live without her and I don't want to live if I can't live as a woman. I literally do not know what to do. Here I am secretly pursuing my transition, knowing it's absolutely the wrong way to go about it, but hopeful that as she sees the small changes she will be OK with them. I think I am deluding myself. What a conundrum I am in. I am blissfully happy in my marriage to her but tormented by wanting to transition.
Is there anyone in a similar boat, that had a positive outcome with their wife, meaning still married? How can I navigate this.....transition and still keep my beautiful soulmate? I feel very selfish and self-centered because if I do what I need to for me, I will no doubt blow her world up.
HELP PLEASE!
My name is Billie, I am 60 years old and a LOOOOONG time lurker (lurker...it sounds so creepy doesn't it......let's use "vicarious learner" instead )! LOL! Anyway, I have utilized FG, PM, RC, REISHI off and on over the years and have a "little" growth. I have used supple nips....they did bring on some decent increase in nipple size, both protrusion and circumference. Increased sensitivity a little as well, which I love, and want it to increase even more. I want to touch them all the time and my wife seems to like them as well, although she claims she does it for me and my pleasure but she does seem to enjoy it too.
I just received my prescription of estradiol valerate,. 3 ml injected subQ once a week. Took first shot on Tuesday. It's Thursday and darnit.....no growth yet, no hips, no butt.......lol......just kidding of course. But seriously, can the E be supplemented with herbs or PM, and if so, what works best?
For transparency sake, I got my first prescription of estradiol a few months back, .3 ml injected subQ. Took 1 dose and freaked........threw it all away. Why? Because I am, and always have been a woman......known since 6 years old. But back then, no term for it and no tolerance for it. So I hyper masculanized......sports, military, construction.....anything and everything to battle this civil war going on inside me. It worked a little, for a time. Got married, had 5 kids and have 3 grands....decently successful career. My wife of 30 years is my absolute best friend and soulmate. And when I say she adores me and I adore her, I am not being hyperbolic. We have the kind of marriage that is almost fairy tale. We have weathered so, so much. I would like to think come hell or high water we can weather this. 2 years ago I dropped the nuclear bomb on her about my gender dysphoria and it almost ended us. I agreed to go to counseling but it did not help, although I told her it did. I compartmentalized it, hid it. But it is RAGING INSIDE ME. I feel as if I will exlode sometimes but I CAN'T LOSE HER but I CAN'T NOT LIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE AS A WOMAN! I am not Suicidal, but I don't want to live without her and I don't want to live if I can't live as a woman. I literally do not know what to do. Here I am secretly pursuing my transition, knowing it's absolutely the wrong way to go about it, but hopeful that as she sees the small changes she will be OK with them. I think I am deluding myself. What a conundrum I am in. I am blissfully happy in my marriage to her but tormented by wanting to transition.
Is there anyone in a similar boat, that had a positive outcome with their wife, meaning still married? How can I navigate this.....transition and still keep my beautiful soulmate? I feel very selfish and self-centered because if I do what I need to for me, I will no doubt blow her world up.
HELP PLEASE!