[Hyacinthe]

You should look up the story of Jenae Kroc. At one time, one of the strongest power lifters ever and transitioned MTF.

She has a documentary oh her life on youtube. Do a search for Jenae Kroc Transformer.

Wow, very interesting!  Although I'm no where near a competive level, I can relate to what she was going through.   To someone that lifts alot, being big and muscular becomes big part of your identity. Becoming more feminine is a complete opposite  of what you have spent most of your life working for.  For her to go from being one of the strongest men become female must have been a very difficult thing.

As I get deeper into NBE and feel my body changing, I have seem to lost the desire to have huge muscles. I'm still a big guy, but now concentrate more on flexibility, yoga, martial arts, running, etc.  I know I'll never have a girl's figure, but I do like the changes so far.

I created this thread about 18 months ago.   Looking back,  I feel my fears and insecurities have been mostly unfounded.   Overall, my body has changed and nobody cares or says anything.   The changes haven't been dramatic, but I have lost some muscle in my upper body and my stomach is much flatter, hips and butt a bit fuller.   By the tape measure chest has only grown about an inch around,  but have lost  an inch under. My 'moobs'  seem like less fat and have taken on a rounder/firmer more feminine look, with more prominent nipples and larger areolas.  

I have had several discussions with my wife and she has noticed changes, especially my soft more feminine chest.   She is aware of  my "female persona", and goes along with  even calling me by my female name and playing the "dominate male" at times in bed.    I feel lucky to be with someone who is willing to indulge in my kinks, yet is  demanding enough in bed to fully keep me in the "males staying males" category.   

If you would have told me 18 months ago I would be clean shaven everywhere, wearing a bra  & even tucking to look somewhat smooth in panties,  I probably would have laughed.    I now recognize the "female in me" is not going away.   It took me some time but I feel I have reached a level of self acceptance.

 

 Hyacinthe