24-06-2025, 05:53 PM
Hi, I just describe my situation, without going point by point:
I had a "I am one of them" (=the girls) moment in kindergarten, aged 6 at most while playing a female role in some theater performance.
Being large, strong, and having a loud voice and no real female role models I buried this under being large, strong, ... you name it.
As a teenager, I remember a 1980s german magazine cover with the headline "I was a man, I was a woman" above the picture of a happy trans woman and trans man respectively. I strongly envied the trans woman for having been able to transition.
Later came (erotic) phantasies of being a girl/woman.
In between I only had romantic/erotic relationships with women, including a 12 year marriage which gave me two wonderful sons.
Now I am 56, on PM until budding sometime last year and then on BO since then, enjoying the amazing loss of strength and the feminine(?) softness of my once lean and muscular body. Being 6'1, lean and broad-shouldered, I'll never dress as a woman, keeping all my feelings to myself, which is ok for me.
As a side note: BO has changed the way I interact with other people, I am more interested in their feelings, which leads to nicer interactions between me and them.
I have also become much more emotional, shedding some tears even while watching stupid TV series etc.
I had a "I am one of them" (=the girls) moment in kindergarten, aged 6 at most while playing a female role in some theater performance.
Being large, strong, and having a loud voice and no real female role models I buried this under being large, strong, ... you name it.
As a teenager, I remember a 1980s german magazine cover with the headline "I was a man, I was a woman" above the picture of a happy trans woman and trans man respectively. I strongly envied the trans woman for having been able to transition.
Later came (erotic) phantasies of being a girl/woman.
In between I only had romantic/erotic relationships with women, including a 12 year marriage which gave me two wonderful sons.
Now I am 56, on PM until budding sometime last year and then on BO since then, enjoying the amazing loss of strength and the feminine(?) softness of my once lean and muscular body. Being 6'1, lean and broad-shouldered, I'll never dress as a woman, keeping all my feelings to myself, which is ok for me.
As a side note: BO has changed the way I interact with other people, I am more interested in their feelings, which leads to nicer interactions between me and them.
I have also become much more emotional, shedding some tears even while watching stupid TV series etc.