06-04-2025, 09:27 AM
I live on the "dark side". I have not told my wife about my will to grow boobs intentionally. She always knew that I "crossdress to de-stress" and, although she is not sexually interested in it, she doesn't mind if I go to CD parties or if I crossdress around the house when the kid is not home. I used to, and now I have stopped because I feel like I should be more "manly me" around her. Years ago she drew the line at transition, something that I would not do (I am quite happy about my life as a guy and think anything else would be worse), but it's easy to see why someone would bring that up when talking about crossdressing. Now, while I don't want to transition, I want to have some boobs for the sake of it, for the sake of filling my bras, and for the sake of feeling what it feels like to have two sensitive bouncing orbs on my chest.
I started about 10 years ago with Pueraria Mirifica and other herbs, with the intention of taking it really slow. I have been losing hair since I was 16 so I told my wife that to try and keep some hair on my head I was taking some herbs. When 5 years ago I was officially diagnosed with gynecomastia I blamed those herbs. My wife looked at me with a "knowing" face and said "As long as they don't get bigger than mine...".
Last year, out of curiosity, I bought off the internet some pharma grade estrogen, Progynova, and took 4mg per day for 3 1/2 months. There are trans people doing monotherapy at that dosage. My boobs grew a little bit and my nipples shifted from a more manly "looking down" to a more feminine "sitting on top of the mound". My son is 8 and he loves to swim with me when we go on holiday, so the thought of now being able to do that is slowing me down a lot. I stopped the progynova in december, although I restarted last week at 2mg/day because, in all honesty, I like the side effects that come with it. It makes me feel younger. I told my wife that I was still taking "something", but I didn't say what.
Breat play has become a staple in my and my wife's intercourse. She has been in premature menopause for quite a few years and she doesn't seem to need or want to have sex that often. When we "agree to do it" (talk about killing the mood in advance) she seems to want to get through it quickly. She knows that playing with my boobs and sucking on them is the fastest way to bring me to an orgasm and she literally uses that as a kill switch when she wants to end the intercourse. She says she likes it. I can't complain...
So, it looks like my breast growth has become a bit of a white lie. She probably knows that something is going on but we are in a bit of "don't ask don't tell" situation.
Side effects: PM is the one that seems to cause the most troubles. I took it for years, on and off, and, invariably, after a few weeks on it I experienced fatigue, cramping, and loss of sex drive. It did work on my boobs, which is why I always went back to it, but it made me feel pretty bad, which is why I decided to try medical grade estrogen. As far as I know, people using Bovarian Ovary (or similar) have fewer problems, but growth on those keeps going for a long time after stopping so it's not as easy to control. I too suggest not to combine the two, also because the PM coule be redundant there.
@AliciaS let me ask you a question: if you are on board with your partner's breast growth, why don't you two agree on a more medical assisted approach? That means getting official HRT from a doctor and under medical supervision. It does not automatically imply transition (although it would be a good excuse to tell the doctor) but it would give more measurable results and open up to the ability to to blood tests and keep things under cotnrol.
I started about 10 years ago with Pueraria Mirifica and other herbs, with the intention of taking it really slow. I have been losing hair since I was 16 so I told my wife that to try and keep some hair on my head I was taking some herbs. When 5 years ago I was officially diagnosed with gynecomastia I blamed those herbs. My wife looked at me with a "knowing" face and said "As long as they don't get bigger than mine...".
Last year, out of curiosity, I bought off the internet some pharma grade estrogen, Progynova, and took 4mg per day for 3 1/2 months. There are trans people doing monotherapy at that dosage. My boobs grew a little bit and my nipples shifted from a more manly "looking down" to a more feminine "sitting on top of the mound". My son is 8 and he loves to swim with me when we go on holiday, so the thought of now being able to do that is slowing me down a lot. I stopped the progynova in december, although I restarted last week at 2mg/day because, in all honesty, I like the side effects that come with it. It makes me feel younger. I told my wife that I was still taking "something", but I didn't say what.
Breat play has become a staple in my and my wife's intercourse. She has been in premature menopause for quite a few years and she doesn't seem to need or want to have sex that often. When we "agree to do it" (talk about killing the mood in advance) she seems to want to get through it quickly. She knows that playing with my boobs and sucking on them is the fastest way to bring me to an orgasm and she literally uses that as a kill switch when she wants to end the intercourse. She says she likes it. I can't complain...
So, it looks like my breast growth has become a bit of a white lie. She probably knows that something is going on but we are in a bit of "don't ask don't tell" situation.
Side effects: PM is the one that seems to cause the most troubles. I took it for years, on and off, and, invariably, after a few weeks on it I experienced fatigue, cramping, and loss of sex drive. It did work on my boobs, which is why I always went back to it, but it made me feel pretty bad, which is why I decided to try medical grade estrogen. As far as I know, people using Bovarian Ovary (or similar) have fewer problems, but growth on those keeps going for a long time after stopping so it's not as easy to control. I too suggest not to combine the two, also because the PM coule be redundant there.
@AliciaS let me ask you a question: if you are on board with your partner's breast growth, why don't you two agree on a more medical assisted approach? That means getting official HRT from a doctor and under medical supervision. It does not automatically imply transition (although it would be a good excuse to tell the doctor) but it would give more measurable results and open up to the ability to to blood tests and keep things under cotnrol.