[zoe_m]

Welcome aboard Zoe, 

Sounds like you are starting out on the right foot and do your research, there is a lot of science stuff but we are here to help and support all. 

Do you have an end goal, if not I'd suggest thinking about this as this really helps you along the NBE path.

Thanks wee2er. 

If I'm totally honest I don't really know my end goal at this point. I started to transition at 21 then stopped due to a few reasons - mostly family/parents. It was also a different time back then. Then 25 years of denial, marriage, 'undenial', telling my wife (no she wasn't supportive), denial, kids. Life is so complicated. But I feel like I've spent my life either keeping other people happy or living in fear of losing everything. It's mostly just, coping? But with this deep sadness... I don't know I guess some people here might relate. So in truth I know deep down I want to transition, but I don't know if I can go through with it. This is I guess a stepping stone at this point.

Part of me would like to go on to HRT but I'm in the UK and not really ready to go through the whole NHS rigmarole, so BO sounds like the best option at this point.