[Manue]

Hello everybody,

I'd love to offer an update. I held off from sharing this, but I believe it's necessary. Since I’ve been passing, I lost two jobs since 2023 after being discovered I was trans. It was mixed with harassment and a lot of humiliation. There are two ongoing lawsuits as a result.

I was referred to a psychologist who has known me well since before my transition. It’s been proposed that I’m in the top IQ percentile of the population. I wish I had learned this before transitioning—it explains so much about my life, but being perceived as a woman now makes it even harder. With strangers, life feels like it’s on easy mode, but it’s the opposite once someone gets to know me.

I’ve had to let go of expectations for anyone, whether it’s leading a team, finding a partner, or spending time with family. No matter the situation, I’ve realized I’ll always be alone, weird, and misunderstood.

I’m learning to make peace with this curse and focus on setting ruthless boundaries to protect myself.

On the hormonal side, I’ve been working with my doctor to raise my testosterone to female levels while staying under 200mg of progesterone. I was prescribed 5mg testosterone cream to apply twice a week, and the improvement in mood stability and cognition has been significant.

Otherwise, I’m still taking 8mg of E2 pills per day. My blood and hormone levels are looking good, but I haven’t tested the new T levels since adding the cream.

I eat a lot of animal fats, protein, and salt—it really helps keep excess fat off, keeps me hydrated, and improves focus.

As for breast growth, it’s been steady. I now fill 36C (US) bras.

Three years in.

Enjoy!

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