[Heaven's Night]

Caylee said it so well already.   Transition is the most demanding and unthankful job I've ever taken on myself. But there's peace of mind, happiness of every little change, feeling my body is my home and not something that's actively telling me to fuck right off and to hate myself. But socially the price of this is insane... The way our society has pushed me aside, how I haven't got the help I was supposed to, how old friends have quietly abandoned me with few golden exceptions. Its insane how difficult this is.

But to survive it, all you need is determination and a support structure of people who keep you goin. There's no way we transition alone, there's always others, those who are there to actually help and not quietly disappear into the woodwork while claiming to be allies.

I hesitated for so long, that's my only regret, I should have had done it all much earlier. Then again, if I did, my experience would have been very different and I likely wouldn't have met the right people who have enabled everything. I've gone through a lot of work grieving the past and my late start. There's a good reason to rush for it, not a day younger no matter what so better get started.