[Menina]

It's the same all the time. 2 mg every 12 hours. Basically 2 times a day 12 hours apart. Finding a good time to take it, given my job has me in different time zones, was the most difficult adjustment.

I was thinking about something... I have a problem with me, I always have desire to be like a girl, but during my live I have had a lot of girlfriends, so today, that I decided to be feminine, the girls doesn't look at me the same way. They come near me and sometimes even change clothes near of me, but to have a relationship with me, no. Almost every day (or night) I dream that I am having a relationship with a girl. I fear never be possible to me to have a relationship. A woman who see a person like me, at first think that I like men, and if I tried to begin something, they think, I don't want a "man" like that, who is like a woman... The man when look at me think only one thing: Sex. Never relationship, so... I fear to be a loneless people for ever... During the day I'm working, making things, when I went to my bed I was whatching netflix, but when everything turn off... inside of me a thing are alive and that thing appears to be male. would I be imprisoning my 'old' or "other" me inside of me? Will I never have a relationship that make me happy with? Will I be happy in the future being alone? Sometimes I toutch my own body, my new curves, and think: "what a hot girl"... but it is strange the same way, because there's no change of energies... I don't know where this is going...