14-09-2024, 07:21 PM
Hi Ian, its a good idea, but in where I live, there's no support groups here... Nothing what so ever I would know of. 
It sucks, in bigger places I could find something but there's nothing here. My town is one of those dead end places where almost all LGBT people in general either move out or they disappear the moment they can so I'm quite alone here.
Caylee, that's so sweet to call me by my second name. Almost nobody does that, I love it.
That's the reason I've stuck up with BN. I thought I would stay for especially trans women who end up here looking for answers and help with their medical transition. Obviously for all other reasons too as we can discuss everything in here. And I took this NBE journey as a challenge and it has become a hobby and passion as well. I wanted to take all amazing information from Lotus and prove her right and figure out my own twist to breast development and on that I have succeeded better than I could have ever dreamed of. I have been contemplating leaving couple of time, but I always come back to thinking that there are people here who need me. There aren't enough hormone science sorcerers sharing the magic out there so I thought to stick up with it. 
Yet there is this emptiness and sadness for not belonging. When I'm out there in real world, I stealth. People see and hear just a tall curvy lady and have no faintest idea about my background. It gives peace of mind, but I cry silently every day knowing that if the illusion of normalcy breaks, almost all of them would reject me, other me and feel weirded out by me. I think being extremely cis passable helps acceptance a lot, people are shallow like that, but I dunno... So much should change, everyone who deals with any trans person has to transition their minds to acceptance and that is very difficult or nearly impossible to pull off. A lot of people just can't, but then again, hitting all gender identifiers in their mind makes it much easier.
I find this to hold some weird fateful irony, that I'm so non conforming to feminine stereotypes, yet at the same time I fit into so much of it that nobody has any idea about me. They don't know and that leads to normal behaviour on their part. Oh and seeing feminists going sour about trans and intersex women hurts so much. We should be sisters to each other, what good is division and hate when world is full of it already?
In some ways I've been looking for that feeling of belonging since I was child and never truly found it. Its strange, it feels like most people don't ever need to ponder upon things like this. I'm an oulier in quite a lot, socially too.
It sucks, in bigger places I could find something but there's nothing here. My town is one of those dead end places where almost all LGBT people in general either move out or they disappear the moment they can so I'm quite alone here. Caylee, that's so sweet to call me by my second name. Almost nobody does that, I love it.
That's the reason I've stuck up with BN. I thought I would stay for especially trans women who end up here looking for answers and help with their medical transition. Obviously for all other reasons too as we can discuss everything in here. And I took this NBE journey as a challenge and it has become a hobby and passion as well. I wanted to take all amazing information from Lotus and prove her right and figure out my own twist to breast development and on that I have succeeded better than I could have ever dreamed of. I have been contemplating leaving couple of time, but I always come back to thinking that there are people here who need me. There aren't enough hormone science sorcerers sharing the magic out there so I thought to stick up with it. Yet there is this emptiness and sadness for not belonging. When I'm out there in real world, I stealth. People see and hear just a tall curvy lady and have no faintest idea about my background. It gives peace of mind, but I cry silently every day knowing that if the illusion of normalcy breaks, almost all of them would reject me, other me and feel weirded out by me. I think being extremely cis passable helps acceptance a lot, people are shallow like that, but I dunno... So much should change, everyone who deals with any trans person has to transition their minds to acceptance and that is very difficult or nearly impossible to pull off. A lot of people just can't, but then again, hitting all gender identifiers in their mind makes it much easier.
I find this to hold some weird fateful irony, that I'm so non conforming to feminine stereotypes, yet at the same time I fit into so much of it that nobody has any idea about me. They don't know and that leads to normal behaviour on their part. Oh and seeing feminists going sour about trans and intersex women hurts so much. We should be sisters to each other, what good is division and hate when world is full of it already?
In some ways I've been looking for that feeling of belonging since I was child and never truly found it. Its strange, it feels like most people don't ever need to ponder upon things like this. I'm an oulier in quite a lot, socially too.