[Heaven's Night]

Its quite crazy really, during last four years, I have ended up with only tiny handful of people who have firstly stuck up with me and secondly who feel like being kinda close enough to relate enough... Its really rough, I thought ordinary women would accept me and totally take me as one of their own. Nope, they're just as judgemental as men, just in a different way. And then I got disappointed with like what, 99% of trans women too? Those few who I see as real friends are very few. Less than ten people in total and some don't even keep contact with me any more. Its sad.

I've been told many times over that things will get better, just give it time blaablaablaa. I don't think so, nothing doesn't seem to be getting any better about my social standing what so ever. At least the few friends have stuck up with me. It means so much. And from all online spaces, this forum feels closest to home. I guess its very telling in some ways.