31-08-2024, 10:31 AM
Just following on from Csquared thinking about body dysphoria
The only body issues I have had is when I hit my mid-thirties when I started putting on a few pounds on my belly, the fat didnt bother me, it was how my scar looked. Back when I was 6-wks old they had to slice me open to sort out a life threatening problem, thankfully all sorted just leaving what has now become a 4" scar. This never bothered me as a kid or adult so always had no qualms whipping my top off when too warm.
But since the fat moved in and no matter how much I lose weight, my scar has developed ugly lumps around the stiches and scar tissue, so much so that I really don't like people seeing it. Which on a side note, is actually what led me to wearing one piece water polo swimsuits when I went to the beach / swimming baths.
Thankfully, other than my scar I have zero issues with my body at all, or do I? Once I had some curves developing on top, I realised my body proportions looked odd - curves on top with straight down hips, just didn't seem to fit right with me! So came to the decision I needed some curves below to match / even out my body shape - in other words a female shape.
As I'm an engineer, all this NBE has been based on research and logical decisions, and thankfully I can see the greys between the black and whites. So after my usual review and research phase, I decided the logical route would be HRT and latterly adding BO as the vehicles to achieve my goals.
To me this isn't dysphoria, it's the same methodology that I have applied all my life,
- Home - buying the right house to renovate
- Work - developing precision machinery, systems, processes etc
- Health- best exercise / diet etc for my health conditions
- NBE - male staying male or to transition - the best regime to achieve a fem shape with B-cup breasts
For me everything is based on research, logical thinking and analysis on how best to achieve something, or am I wrong / blinkering / limiting myself?
The only body issues I have had is when I hit my mid-thirties when I started putting on a few pounds on my belly, the fat didnt bother me, it was how my scar looked. Back when I was 6-wks old they had to slice me open to sort out a life threatening problem, thankfully all sorted just leaving what has now become a 4" scar. This never bothered me as a kid or adult so always had no qualms whipping my top off when too warm.
But since the fat moved in and no matter how much I lose weight, my scar has developed ugly lumps around the stiches and scar tissue, so much so that I really don't like people seeing it. Which on a side note, is actually what led me to wearing one piece water polo swimsuits when I went to the beach / swimming baths.
Thankfully, other than my scar I have zero issues with my body at all, or do I? Once I had some curves developing on top, I realised my body proportions looked odd - curves on top with straight down hips, just didn't seem to fit right with me! So came to the decision I needed some curves below to match / even out my body shape - in other words a female shape.
As I'm an engineer, all this NBE has been based on research and logical decisions, and thankfully I can see the greys between the black and whites. So after my usual review and research phase, I decided the logical route would be HRT and latterly adding BO as the vehicles to achieve my goals.
To me this isn't dysphoria, it's the same methodology that I have applied all my life,
- Home - buying the right house to renovate
- Work - developing precision machinery, systems, processes etc
- Health- best exercise / diet etc for my health conditions
- NBE - male staying male or to transition - the best regime to achieve a fem shape with B-cup breasts
For me everything is based on research, logical thinking and analysis on how best to achieve something, or am I wrong / blinkering / limiting myself?