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That's what I'm concerned about, is rejection/infection and not being able to pump. But piercing was more of a curiosity in how to make my nipples larger, but just in the past few days I've noticed a change. I noogle when I wake up for as long as I can, and again when I get home for as long as I can, but then I put my Paruu's to work on my nipples with a splash of PM cream. The same cream that I went way overboard with in a previous post months ago. I take a brush and use the cream to lubricate the lactation pump and wear them with a sports bra while I sleep. Some nights I briefly wake up to reset them when their 30 minute timer goes off, others it's the one session and however the remaining vacuum holds my nipples in place. That, combined with the new bras and my nipples cycling from relaxed to aroused either from cold or stimulation when I can sneak it, has resulted in my nipples thickening and strengthening A LOT. Prior to this journey, when relaxed my nipples might have been 7-8mm. When erect, 5-6 maybe? In my latest bras I'm probably a 13-14mm when relaxed and a measured 12 when erect. And even my relaxed nipples are starting to just slightly print through the bra, another couple weeks, maybe through the tee, and I'm thankful for the overshirt because when erect I print if I pull it any more taut than resting.

On another note, I mentioned this in another thread and I'd again like to welcome you back. Reading your threads is what informed a lot of the things I do and allowed me to pluck up the courage to strive for my daily, live-in B's.

As for the self-harm, I genuinely hope that's well in the rear view mirror, but, if it's not, there are many here who are willing to be your sounding board aside from the assistance and courage you provided us. It's not a tit for tat thing, it's a genuine care and thank you thing.

I will close this out by saying, if you can take a fish knife, and I know a thing or two about knife wounds; you can definitely take a tattoo needle. I have several and I'd show, but they're also personally identifiable and my anonymity is valuable. You plucked up the courage to pump, did the research to begin to alter yourself, then went full-bore. If you really wanted a tattoo you'd not only have one, you'd have several. The issue isn't the willpower. The "issue" is that you haven't found the image/symbol/text that speaks to you so strongly that you're willing to endure whatever you have to in order to make it a reality. Doubt me? Your bra is singing my same song.