[PerkyAcups]

I had a friend not only notice my breasts, but commented on them.  

I spent Friday planting new grass in my yard.  It was hot and muddy. A friend popped over late in the day.  I was topless, sweaty and dirty. When he walked up close he pulled his hands up like he was blocking his view of my chest and said something and laughed.  

For the life of me I can't remember exactly what he said. Something like 'I didn't realize it was an R rated back yard' or 'I need some blinders to block that view'.  I am really frustrated I can't remember.  But the comment was clearly directed at my breasts.  

I have been on PM and RR for almost a year now and I am getting pretty nervous about people noticing, though so far no one seems to have. I’ve been stressing a bit about wearing hoodies at work as it gets warmer, searching for a sports bra that doesn’t show under my shirt, and have bought some men’s compression shape wear tank tops. I’ve been telling myself, a cis woman woman would be stared at if she didn’t wear a bra either. You don’t usually see women walking around topless, I can no longer go around topless (which has been making me sad), but I chose this, I wanted boobs, and this is what life with boobs is like. (Hope this doesn’t come across as criticism/ harsh, just how I’ve been handling similar feelings.)

So you’re thinking maybe it’s time I shouldn’t go topless. No criticism taken, I really appreciate the comments. Not being able to go topless makes me sad too. I have been going topless everyday around the house.  Really just purposely flaunting the breasts making sure everyone sees. Maybe it’s time I look at this from a different perspective. I have breasts, like females have breasts. I probably should cover them like females do. I feel like this is a really big milestone if I stop going topless.