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Hi Pooky,

I fight guilt and shame constantly. It's from my childhood. Parents, teachers, school, society are all to blame for toxic shame. It was how they operated back then.  I feel shame for not being perfect, but we are all human and make mistakes. My mind can remember silly mistakes from my whole life! Like I am beating myself up for something no one else remembers decades ago!

They say try to live in the moment. The past is gone and we can't change it. 

Kay
As I’m not a physicist, just a caring person looking in.  The people around you probably didn’t even realize the damage society and individuals around you were inflicting upon you.  With society not giving a damn.  You need to remember in this time of our lives if we had reached out for outside help we would have probably been ostracized ridiculed or worse, so we had to learn to keep it bottled up inside us.  Which only made the scares deeper and hurt more.

Yes we should try to live in the moment.  But you know as well as I that is very hard to do, and is like rubbing salt in a wound.  The other statement I hear is, JUST MOVE ON AND FORGET ABOUT IT.  Is that not a stupid cure for a problem that is with us the rest of our lives. 

Enough is enough, have to clear my mind and think happy thoughts. Maybe some of this might help you have a better day.

Always!

Pooky