[DruLactin]

Thanks Bobbi, i do appreciate the using my name~

as for mentally and sociably, i still a guy as far as anyone knows, besides my sister, but lately i've really been feeling the need to tell somebody about it. Because to everyone else, I'm just a guy who isn't progressing in life, this is like the only thing thats changing about me, and it seems to me like those changes are slowing which is super annoying. well, actually, some things have changed, I now do grocery runs for the household, so now i at least have some claim to being a contributing member of something.

And maybe coming out would just be asking people to buy into a delusion: that I have good reason to be postponing my making something of myself. and speaking of which, sign-up for college classes for the fall semester likely start around now. if I knew that I could stick to a thing and see it through, I could technically make it through in 2 years with no college debt. And for the college in question that is highly impressive at my income level. Big problem: I have no idea what I would want to study, and no confidence in my conviction to see it through. So I am pressured to make a decision quite soon, I know that I can't possibly make that decision in good conscience, and I'm scarred from the sheer stress i was under when I was there. It's just a really hellish problem i'm faced with rn.

anyhow, that's how the whole package is shaping up.

-Aria