[Cunningluvr]

I'm not even sure I know what transgender specifically means anymore. Does gender still have a meaning, or do we move along several spectrums of masculine/feminine traits?

I had a very strong father figure who could also be very tender, and a mother who reminded people of Glenda the Good Witch, but ran several businesses and could weld; I think I grew up not knowing typical gender stereotypes. Since I had external genitalia, they steered me in a male direction, but that's what they knew - at the same time they encouraged me to do female (from their perspective) things like cook, sew, use my artistic talents, pay attention to fashion, grooming, manners. LOL, my dad was cool with it as long as I could still throw a football 40 yards.

I'm feminizing my body but don't think I'd ever go for bottom surgery, despite caging my male genitals and hoping NBE shrinks them. Breast implants and FFS could happen tho.

I'm loving NBE, and after seeing NBE results don't think I'll do HRT - I really dislike the idea of becoming a permanent medical patient (based on the experience of a friend on HRT).

Over time I've lost sexual interest in women, but don't see myself being married to or in any form of commitment to a guy. I am sort of a loner. I loved Robinson Crusoe until Friday showed up.

I love putting together dressy outfits with 6" platform heels but wear leggings and a hoodie 90% of the time, and my makeup skills are horrendous other than foundation and lipstick just because I'm kind of a wash and go person. Sort of a girly tomboy.

I'm really into feminine lingerie, perfume, home decor, girly pop music...but I nerd out over trains and airplanes. I worry about breaking a nail when I'm using my ginormous chain saw to cut up firewood. I go to the shooting range at least once a month (girl gotta protect herself).

I could care less about pronouns, being misgendered, legal name changes and have no time for trans activism. I think it does more harm to me than good, and I don't really want to be labeled and packed in a box. I answer to both my male and female names, doesn't bother me. I DO NOT want special treatment as a trans woman, I want respectful treatment as a person. I particularly can't stand all the whining and butt hurt I read in MtF forums, so I quit reading them. I don't care what politicians do regarding transgenderism; I know if I really want something, I'll get it. Always have. 

So when someone asks me if I'm transgender I tell them I'm Erica.