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I did watch a mid section of Lynn McTaggart's presentation, and I it does seem to be the same idea.

I'm not sure if its this "mutual intention" I've signed up for here, or my body negotiating against the change by offering a psychological compromise, but I might as well log it as an "effect".

I wanted these superficial changes so that I could possibly be a satisfying wife and a capable mother - but the new enlightenment I've had is realizing that this self-determination was motivated by a desire to experience unconditional love.  

Being a parent in order to experience unconditional love is not a healthy basis for doing so - and I can conjecture that its not a healthy basis for a romantic relationship either.

People who are already in the position to be wives and mothers that I was envying - can and do get this wrong.  My parents got this wrong, and I was trying to get to a place where I could get it wrong, too. 
 
I know now, that all this is looking for unconditional love (being loved for no reason) - and what I thought would be a first step to achieving it (being loved for what you are) may not necessarily happen like I thought.

It doesn't help me with a physical change, but it does seem like a healthy mental realization (at least for me).