[Heaven's Night]

That... might be a part of it.
Before talking about the dosages, it's the first time checking my measurements in a while... and I haven't made any progress in the last 8 months. No growth at all. The half inch I put on in the last few months was solely from me putting ten pounds on and is entirely evaporated now I've lost a bit of weight. It's incredibly frustrating and this is the first time I've ever truly had a dysphoria induced panic attack. I used to think of myself as not being that dysphoric, but I think this is starting to show I do have strong feelings I haven't come to grips with yet.

The dosages might make a bit of sense for the stalling. I recently changed from 0.175ml/7mg every 10 days, to 0.11ml/4.4mg every 7 days. Both are 40mg/ml EEn. I got my blood test when I was on the 7mg dose, and that had peaks of 350pg/ml of E2, and troughs of 250. Current dose has peaks of 220, and troughs of 150. I haven't tested my blood on this new dose, but, I imagine it'd be overall be lower. I might be in the correct range right now. My mood is a tiny bit off, but my chest feels sore. If I had to guess, I might be a bit low on estrogen? I have felt snippier than usual lately though. It has only been 2 weeks since I feel the DHT left my system, so maybe I need to settle in. I don't know, maybe I'll try 0.01ml more some time. 
It's worth noting I did go testosterone dominant for a month or so, and I've only recently switched back over to estrogen dominant now I'm on Cypro again. 6.25mg a day seems to be enough to keep testosterone and DHT at bay.
I have also had the first real bout of chest soreness I've had since my last growth spurt in the last two weeks as well, but since I've been eating less and losing weight, it doesn't seem to have made a difference. It's situated right up under my nipple, it doesn't extend all the way to the base of the breast though.
I've been slacking on the Noogle and I will try to do more of it, just I'm frustrated there wasn't more progress on all these supplements and time.

I'll keep on these doses for a bit and stick to the supplements for at least a month before I start thinking something is truly off. And I'll try another blood test in the coming weeks.


Full disclaimer, personal dissatisfaction is one of the reasons I'm not at all that active around here, and when I am, I don't really exchange pleasantries. Hearing the stories of others who continue to make loads of progress while I've fought as hard for as I have for five years now to still end up making far less progress is just really demotivating and harmful to my mental state. I feel I need to take several month long breaks to focus on my journey personally to avoid comparing myself to others and beating myself up for not doing better. To be clear I'm not mad at anyone for sharing stories, it's just why I'm a bit... distant.

You know, this is weird. I have a friend who also has had a massive stall while on moderate dose on EEn and she's been stuck for ages. BUt in her case I presume she has just reached the end of the road for her and haven't tried supplementing with anything decent. And that totally sucks. But it might be your natural way with this too, some people get stuck for a long time only to get growth spurt later. Are you on progesterone? Because you should try, that may get things rolling again. Another is to do the oral E trick to kick the growth back in by supplementing with 1-2mg of oral E daily for several weeks to a month... That might be worth a try.

Yes, definitely keep your T at bay, that's the first thing to fuck it all up if it gets too high, so better staying on cypro.

Awwwh, I can relate so much. I mean my dysphoria is often so extreme that despite my good progress, I just feel too shitty to see how others are doing, its just too triggering. So I avoid a lot and take breaks when needed. Usually few days is enough, some times longer. Its kinda getting easier with time but I somehow feel like my dysphoria is from the extreme end of things. Just that I know how you're feeling. But please don't feel discouraged, we will troubleshoot your stall and make out things to get you started again.