[Crystal Amethyst]

I am not going to tell you to find someone else. My wife knows that I am trans and she is ok with some of it. I haven't transitioned completely for many reasons. I have read articles by people who transitioned and they say nothing should stop you. Well, we all are different and have our reasons. I really would like to transition completely one day and I think that I will. You Pandora, have to do what is best for you and if you want to stay with her, then stay. Maybe you could work some honesty into your communication a little at a time. Maybe you can find a happy spot for you. I would like to see you stop the purge cycle. That seems emotionally unhealthy. I found my sweet spot for now. My hair is long, my ears are pierced, I epilate body hair. I take NBE supplements. I feel feminine enough now so that I don't suffer dysphoria and my wife is ok with it. 
BTW, my NBE is not expensive. I take Swanson Vitamins Estro-8, reishi, green tea and spearmint tea.