[Jamie-May]

Dear Jamie,

For a long time you have been an inspiration to many of us! I just wonder if you were growing, feminizing and improving constantly. To the point of expecting constant growth and when it doesn't happen it's a real downer. Maybe your body, mind and spirit need a long break. Maybe to you need to find yourself and think about your future. I think this journey is a very hard one and I am sure you know that.I have not achieved the results that you and many of the girls here have. My pace is much slower. Some days I look in the mirror and see a woman, other days I can look in the same mirror and see a man. My old self and that triggers dysphoria and depression. If your identity is a woman, you are there. Go easy on yourself. You have your whole life ahead of you. Maybe you need to shift your focus for a while. Is there anything you enjoy doing? Riding a bicycle, walking, meditating? Nourish your spirit and give the whole physical transformation a break. Get back on that path when you are ready. Remember, you (and all of us) are beautiful people! I hope you the best Jamie!

Yeah I know I'd changed a lot in many ways over the last two years. It really started getting to me a bit once things slowed down to what felt like a halt and when my boob progress fell backwards due to the weight loss. I expected to lose bust size of course but now often they look like a sad reminder of how full they once were. It is a very hard journey, yeah. I'm transitioning with full blown HRT and everyone else who is experiencing the same will have a tough road ahead. My identity is a woman, or that's what I want to be even if my reflection sometimes makes me feel far less than that. I'll still be exercising and will try weight cycling since either way a good 10 pound gain might be good for me after I hit close to 140 as my goal. Thanks for the kind words Crystal~ I'll keep trying my best moving forward and doing what I can with the things I can control. I too hope and wish you all the best!

I want to cheer you up, but I don't know what to say...  

Except about pumping, you went too rough on yourself and you got to start easier and build up a tolerance to it. I get this same problem after a break if I start as usual. As strange as it sounds, your boobs have to get used to it. Start with low pressure and short sessions and then slowly build it up, take like five to ten minute increments to it and very slowly build up to using higher pressure. It takes time, but once you're used to it and start to build up the hours, it can be very rewarding.

I'm now about two and half months on with more rigorous pumping regimen, same as before, but pushing in more than twice the hours. Believe me that it works. Key to success with pumping is to not overdo it, pushing in the hours and being consistent.

Aww don't worry Lara. Thanks for the advice you've given me. It's all I can ask for~ I'll try it again once I recovered and see how things go. ^_^ You're a constant helper and super kind.