[Crystal Amethyst]

I applaud your efforts! When I was young, I was was very insecure and I thought that if I got huge muscles that everyone would respect me and bullies would fear me. I read all the muscle magazines, lifted and took supplements. I was kind of big but never made it near any contest level for bodybuilding. It was hard to stick to training, in retrospect because I think that I was doing it all for the wrong reasons. I also played high school sports, only to please my family. Years after growing up, I finally started working on my inner self. Since I was a small child, I felt like a girl but had to bury those feels for survival at the time, plus they caused a lot of shame for me, that I tried to compensate by lifting weights to prove that there was nothing wrong with me and that I was good enough.

The last few years have been quite an awakening to who I am. Not just my strong femininity, but healing of old emotional wounds and negative beliefs about myself. I am not sure where my life is going, but I have some ideas and visions of the future.

Best wishes to your success!