[Nipply Russel]

You sound like me. Exactly like me. I'm not trying to put any labels on you, but watching porn and wishing you were the woman? Many call that gender dysphoria. Thinking about/wishing you could be a woman all the time? Gender dysphoria. Feeling like you're making a mistake and it's all wrong immediately after orgasm? That's because the dysphoria goes away for a few minutes because of the feel-good chemicals your body has released ("euphoria"). I could go on.

This might help:
https://genderdysphoria.fyi/en/am-i-trans
https://genderdysphoria.fyi/en/impostor-syndrome

Love,
Morpheus