[Owllee]

HI...I am usually allergic to the internet but I need to find information here....so while here I read your thread.

Here are some random thoughts based on 17 months on 2-8mg Estrofem a day...usually 6mg:

    -this may begin being about breasts and longings and so on...but it will morph into something much more complex and I do not reccomend it...but since you started...your body will change all over and very subtly for 6 months or so but one day you will realize you are on the gender line and every move you make, another chance you take...well...anyway

    -I love the feminizing effects on my body...the mental effects...the weird sexual preference mind co-play...the incredible long story fantasies my brain tells me all the time....how thick my hair is...the added sensitivitiy to touch almost every where...how incredibly happy it makes me to be domestic and look after people and animals...

     -I hate the anxiety...the sleepless nights...the sexual confusion...the lose of energy....the waiting...the fear...the idiots in the media misunderstanding any and everything tg and none binary....the lose of muscle...the rise in my blood pressure despite losing 70lbs in the last couple years...the increased sensitivity to cold...spices....air currents...the toliet paper being hung wrong...being an absolute bitch 99% of the time...and I really hate that word

     Wait... i forgot to mention that cats are very fond of me now.

      So I decided when I started that the few decent studies seem to agree that breast growth is triggered around the 6th month and continues for a couple years with most growth in the first 18 months...and that after 2 years much male muscle is gone for good....so I planned to stop at 18 months and switch back to PM.

 But now I find I like Estrogen a little too much...despite it all...and I dont want to stop...I just dont want to take Estrofem any more....

 For me...unless I was splitting a two mg pill and taking each half well apart...or taking at least 6 mg a day...the estrofem would wear off and I would feel like crap...it does not last long in the body....but once the changes are triggered i think things become very hard to predict

 So...DiDi knows alot...I know her a lttle...she and Lotus have made this so much more than almost any other site..and everyone else who writes in...

 I am trying to work out how to stop for awhile...I know my next phase is very obviously obvious...my face is changing fast now and I have been told a couple of times now that I "Look like a chick" when wearing androgenous clothing which I only ever wear...so...

 Best...and good luck

 Owlie

  

 

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