19-12-2010, 04:02 PM
Lisa,
Thanks for the congrats; I can truly say that I did not know that a person could live in a place of such contentement and realise that I had lived my live on the borders of depression. As you are doing, I used my tosterterone fueled sex drive, to try and suppress the reality of who I was; bad mistake. Is it better to have sex drive or be contented?
I still am a sensual being who admires beauty and have an inner sense of sexuality, but I am no longer consumed by it. Besides, many post Op transexuals, have active sex lives. Anything that produces boobs, will have other impacts on you, including an effect on male function. An even greater impact is on your personality and mood. Hormones control our brains and with that, who we are. An oestrogen controled brain produces a calmer, less aggressive person and you may well come to like that person so much you cannot let her go. These are changes I have embraced on my voyage into womanhood and nothing that has happenned to me has caused me to deviate, in the slightest from my course.
I urge you to look into the Dutch research on the cause of transexualism and remember that it is a world of anxiety, angst and even severe mental illness, leading to suicide, due to a phycical condition. Look deep into your soul and ask yourself how you see yourself, in your fantasies or when you lie awake at night; have you yearned to wake up the next day as a woman? Remember, there is no such thing as a part time transexual and by trying to grow boobs, you point that way, rather than to someone, who wants to remain male but enjoys a bit of femmaninity The earlier you can transition the easier it will be and the better the oucome and never underestimate the levels of support you will find, particularily among women. I know only too well, how hard all of this is and many run away from it and become trapped in the most ditressing of circumstances.
Big Hugs,
Chrissie
Thanks for the congrats; I can truly say that I did not know that a person could live in a place of such contentement and realise that I had lived my live on the borders of depression. As you are doing, I used my tosterterone fueled sex drive, to try and suppress the reality of who I was; bad mistake. Is it better to have sex drive or be contented?
I still am a sensual being who admires beauty and have an inner sense of sexuality, but I am no longer consumed by it. Besides, many post Op transexuals, have active sex lives. Anything that produces boobs, will have other impacts on you, including an effect on male function. An even greater impact is on your personality and mood. Hormones control our brains and with that, who we are. An oestrogen controled brain produces a calmer, less aggressive person and you may well come to like that person so much you cannot let her go. These are changes I have embraced on my voyage into womanhood and nothing that has happenned to me has caused me to deviate, in the slightest from my course.
I urge you to look into the Dutch research on the cause of transexualism and remember that it is a world of anxiety, angst and even severe mental illness, leading to suicide, due to a phycical condition. Look deep into your soul and ask yourself how you see yourself, in your fantasies or when you lie awake at night; have you yearned to wake up the next day as a woman? Remember, there is no such thing as a part time transexual and by trying to grow boobs, you point that way, rather than to someone, who wants to remain male but enjoys a bit of femmaninity The earlier you can transition the easier it will be and the better the oucome and never underestimate the levels of support you will find, particularily among women. I know only too well, how hard all of this is and many run away from it and become trapped in the most ditressing of circumstances.
Big Hugs,
Chrissie