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Hi all! I have lurked
on this forum for several months now and am appreciative of all of the information
everyone has contributed. I am male and
have lived most of my life questioning my gender identify. Now in my early thirties, I still go through
waves of dysmorphia and have started counseling to help me sort out my
feelings. After reading up on BO for
several months, I thought I would give it a try and I purchased a bottle of
Swanson’s Ovarian Glandular. I started
with one 250 mg pill per day late in the afternoon for two weeks. The reason I took it late in the day is
because that is when my body temperature seems to be the highest. I noticed within the first week that my skin
got really soft- like silk.
After two weeks, I got a little scared and stopped- mainly
because other than the forums about BO and the four to six month warning and
potential permanent effects, I couldn’t really find much information about long
term use of BO for males. After a week off, I put my fears aside and decided to
go back to the BO, this time I took two a day for two weeks- once around lunch
time, and another late in the evening. I
maintained my normal active lifestyle- 4-6 workouts a week with healthy eating
and lots of protein. During this time,
my skin maintained its new softness. I
also noticed a glow on my face by the end of the second week. My skin felt more oily as well. I did not feel or notice any other
changes.
After the two week mark with two a day, I took a break for
another week. I started back with one
pill a day for about half a week. It was
about this time when I noticed I just felt different. I seem more relaxed and my anxiety was not as
high, but I felt different in other ways too- kinda hard to explain??
Maybe it was euphoria I was feeling that convinced me to up
the dosage, but I decided at this point to go up to three 250 mg pills a day-
one in the morning, one at lunch, and one in the evening. I did this for three weeks. During this course, my skin maintained its
softness and continued to feel oily and have a glow to it. I noticed that my cheeks felt more full
whenever I smiled and my lips also had a fullness to them I had not noticed
before. They felt heavier. I did not take any measurements before I
started my BO experiment, but I did weigh in.
From the time I began to this point, I lost a few pounds, but this is
normal for me in the summer so I am not sure if the BO had anything to do with the weight loss. I did
notice that ALL of my pants and shorts were more loose in the waist, but they
all seemed tighter fitting in the thigh and butt area. I also noticed a difference in how I carried
myself- I felt like my butt and hips were carrying more weight. I can’t really confirm this because I didn’t
take any measurements, but I with all of the exercising I do- I am very aware
of my body and I felt like my center of balance was shifting.
Sexually- skip this if you don’t want too much information- my
testicles DEFINITELY shrank. I am a
landscaper down below but did let some pubic hair grow- it seemed noticeably
thicker and softer than before. I
noticed additional moisture down below and a more feminine odor overall. The smell of women’s deodorant became more
appealing to me and I often felt like my men’s deodorant just wasn’t cutting
it. I have always been attracted to
women, but like to be bottomed from time to time. My desire for a traditional male sexual release pretty much faded away by the end of my trial , but I
certainly did not lose any interest in being bottomed. I did find it harder to get erections, but
any orgasm I had- whether by the traditional male method, or by stimulating my
prostate through bottoming- was much more intense. It was hard to scope my penis size-sometimes
I would struggle with getting fully aroused and would either just quit or come
into orgasm anally without a full or any erection at all. I hope this isn’t TOO much information, but I
find it relevant.
Finally, my breasts.
I have gynecomastia which developed when I hit puberty around the age of
13. At that time, my nipples/areolas
projected from my chest in a cone shape and I developed significant breast
tissue. Instead of going to a good
doctor and getting my hormones tested and trying to figure out what caused
this, I found the first surgeon who would operate on me when I turned 18 and
had a lot of the tissue removed. I was
never satisfied with the results- my areolas are still larger than silver
dollars, and they still cone out some.
I still carry around a more than ordinary amount of breast tissue for a
male of my size- I am pretty lean and have never been obese. Sometimes I wish I had not even had the
surgery. Anyway- I did not really feel
or notice any differences on the BO until the last week- about two months in- my
nipples had not grown, but were constantly hard and getting irritated by my
shirts. My areolas seemed to have
widened even more than they already were- I did not measure them but they just
seemed bigger. My breasts felt more full and heavier and
they kind of jiggled some when I shook them. I felt unusual sensations deep in the breast tissue- perhaps growing pains? Even
now I notice I keep grabbing them and rubbing them more than before. Every now and then, I could get a sensation
from breast and nipple play that sparked something else—if you know what I mean. I’ve never really felt that before.
With all the changes I began to notice, I guess I got cold
feet and stopped the BO. I was afraid of
the permanent results and also of the “flipping” I read about. I know everyone is different and for some,
the BO may not even have any effects.
Now after about four weeks off of BO, some of the effects have
gone away -the softness of my skin became less noticeable, the oily glow or
shine I had went away, my cheeks and lips don’t feel as full, my testicles regained
their fullness and my penis has slowly come back to life. My nipples still get hard a lot-but not as
often- and my areolas still look widened- again, I already had big areaolas anyway. My hips and butt still fit tightly-but not too tight- in
my pants and my waistline feels smaller. I am down about ten pounds from when I started two months ago- but again, that is normal for me for summer as I am more active. My balance still feels different, but not as
off as before and nothing major. My breasts still have a different fullness to
them and they still jiggle a little, but nothing noticeable to anyone other
than myself.
After a few weeks off of
the BO, I look back and really enjoyed the effects I was seeing, but I am just
not ready to commit to anything permanent. Even so, I am afraid to take BO long term because I just don't know what it may do to me. IF and WHEN I am ready to commit to full transition, I will take the prescribed HRT route and stay
under the care and supervision of a good doctor.