I don't want to give out my exact age, but since it's relevant to this thread I'll just say that I'm several years over 35 and will probably be several years until I'm able to transition the way my life is going. I look back on my life and feel like it's been wasted.
I'm wondering if these feelings will go away after I transition (if that ever happens) or if it won't be any better. I know there are some older people here compared to r/asktransgender (fuck that sub) so maybe I'll get some perspective as I know my view of life is heavily warped.
Maybe I'd feel better if I knew I was going to pass, but I doubt that. I haven't really experimented (much) with makeup, but I've used digital programs to add makeup. I've used digital filters with snapchat and faceapp, but that's basically what I'd look like if I had extensive surgery (in other words: not realistic).
Voice hasn't been much better. I've made some progress, but my natural voice is deep even for a male - have gotten compliments several times for it (which ofc is meaningless considering my circumstances).
So are there any late transitioners who felt hopeless before transition, but have a changed perspective afterwards? It seems like transitioning is just going to add new problems to my life. I remember years ago watching videos and reading about people saying transitioning was great from them, but I feel like that's only a selective sample. If you say that transitioning sucks and is difficult on reddit, you'll get downvoted so you don't hear about it as much.