[StellaZ]

Shirazmn,

I'm really disappointed that this thread didn't get more traction, because I would really like to hear the stories from a lot of guys, especially on the topics of how they started  on this journey, and what they have said to their wives, and what stage they are at and how their lives are now.

For my part, I'm a 68-year-old white male from Texas. I've been married for almost 10 years to my fourth wife, but I wouldn't describe it as happy. I've had some latent crossdressing desires for a long time, but they never really surfaced much until about a year ago, when I got a "brain fart" and just went after it in a big way, Within a week, I was going shopping at the thrift stores dressed in skirt, blouse, panties, and bra stuffed with a 36DD breast form.  But in the year since, I've gone through 3 complete purges, and had some very difficult conversations with my wife, who does NOT accept it all. The conclusion of the discussion was that if I pushed it or persisted in it, it would be "the death of our marriage."

I knew that it was possible for men to take hormones and develop some breasts.  I had read that, while everyone is different, typically, you would top out at about a small B cup. If I was going to develop breasts, I wanted them bigger than that, because I like big breasts! But I also didn't want to do anything overt to cause them.  In another thread, I mentioned an article I stumbled across about a middle-aged guy who grew 38DDD boobs as a result of prescription meds, and I was jealous!

And then I stumbled on this site, and I've been pouring over it every chance I get and trying to absorb everything I can.  I stumbled onto the thread "Binaural Beats" in the Personal Programs section, and, while skeptical, I thought, well, I can give that try and just see what it does, and that's not really doing anything "overt".  If it does work, and the wife asks where those boobs came from, I can say I don't know!

But as has been mentioned on here many times, the whole process of growing boobs has a strong tendency to be addictive.  So I'm not sure I'll be able to leave it there!

At the same time, I'm not 100% convinced I want to go there, even if the wife was not a consideration.  Am I going to go a year or two down this road, develop a pair that can't be hidden, and then decide I really don't want them?  Getting rid of a pair of boobs is not like throwing out a few hundred dollars worth of crossdressing clothes!  It's scary!

I'd love to hear from others where they are on this road.

Did you find a "Binaural Beats" program that worked for you????  I have seen them and want to try them out to see if I can get my breasts to grow. Been using PM for a few years off and on and have had some growth, but need something else too! Thanks!

this  is  so  similar  to  where  i  am  now  ive  stoped  and  srarted  so  many  times  just  lately  its  crazy  when  i  stop  the  NBE  my  boobs  srink  a  bit  but  are  still  very  much  there  within  a  weeck  of  starting  again  they  seem  to  come  back  very  quickly  and  i  get  scared  becouse  they  get  so  ovious  and  so  hard  to  hide .  im  shure  if  i  stuck  at  it  they  would  grow  very  big  but  even  though  ive  always  cross  dressed  in  my  daily  life  im  just  an  avarage  family  guy  its  driving  me  crazy  at  the  mo  cos  i  cant  make  up  my  mind  .  i  decide  to  stop  but  then  two  weecks  later  im  back  on  it  again  i  realise  im  addicted  to  growing  boobs   i  wish  i  knew  the  way  out  of  this  mess .

I have a situation somewhat similiar.  I am older (56) and a family man.  2 adult children and a wife.  I discovered sissy porn a few years ago and was immediately hooked.  I travel a lot for work so as soon as I got to my hotel I was in my women's clothing,  sleeping in lingerie and wearing my breast forms. I get so tuned on by it.  I feel its a fetish but the more I move through all of this, the more unsure I am.  I found PM and thought I could feel more feminine and stop after I got some unnoticeable growth and I want to experinece the budding sensation. I'm very glad I found this board for support and guidance.  I just started taking PM but it seems once you get started its very hard to stop.  Stay strong.  If you need to stop I'm sure everyone here will help you through the tough times

Suspecting you will get scared at results and stop, then only to start again kicking yourself for stopping.
Well is what happened to me, but can't imagine I'm the only one.

That seems to be the pattern I have found on here in general.  Its very interesting, I do get nervous already and I am only a few days into but the thrill and excitement of it all keeps me moving forward.  I suspect there maybe a line that is crossed and once you are over it, it becomes the point of no return, so to speak.  I could be wrong as I don't have the experience others have.  I guess we all find out in time