[PleasantlyFascinated]

It sounds to me that some of you might have a touch of my affliction. I believe that I'm auto autogynephilic. I have always so admired the female form that it has morphed into wanting to possess it for myself. Having not gotten enough of women's bodies, I feel the need to "grow my own." I have no desire to try to live as a woman, act like a woman or be with men; I just want to hide a female body beneath the male self that I present.

But there's not much of a family connection yet. We'll see....

From the words you express, I'd say I'm pretty much at the same place.

Although, I am somehow no longer finding it too incongruous to embody both feminine and masculine traits simultaneously.  In my preferred version, the one does not necessarily cancel the other out, and preserves the potential for either.