[PaulaJ]

No one else really can tell you what you are. What's worse are those that try to tell you without you asking.

I thought I was genderfluid when I joined here, though I think now I'm just a lesbian trans woman. I never was a masculine guy. I didn't really try to be when I was a kid, but as I got older I felt I had to for professional reasons, and mostly failed at it. Most people just saw me as a gay guy no matter what I did, and that is just not me, even though I am very feminine, I don't like men that way, and very much like women that way.

It really took a long time to see that it's entirely possible to like women and be a trans woman, because that was not part of the standard trans narrative from last century.

Also though, some people that have a beard and boobs don't necessarily want the beard. Getting electrolysis is a long and expensive process, and requires you to have at least 4 days growth. I love that some people are trying to rock it, because I have to anyway to get rid of this shadow. I have to live in the meantime.

But that's my story, and it's somewhat different from yours. Some people are OK with having some mix of masculine and feminine characteristics. I hope I still am somewhat as there's some things that can't be changed, or are expensive to change.