[Nipply Russel]

I was never breastfed as a baby/child. To make matters worse, my mom had a mastectomy due to breast cancer when I was very young, so breasts were never a part of my life - only in pictures and on Monty Python/Benny Hill once in a while. The first time I saw them, my mouth started watering; it was as though I'd discovered what had been missing in my life. I became obsessed. I pity my first girlfriend, because I latched onto her small boobs and wouldn't let go!

A short time down the road, I saw my first bits of trans porn and the idea of a person with male genitalia and breasts fascinated me. The fascination quickly turned into a fetish and I eventually found myself wishing I could be a transwoman while devouring endless amount of trans fiction, photos and videos. But I was never uncomfortable being a man, unless you count being frustrated with my thin body while my friends were more muscular.

Fast forward to today... I guess I'm trying to grow breasts because I can. I can't change my body in any other positive way. Working out hasn't made me bigger and it turns out that my body seems to want to do a great job of becoming more feminine. My butt is round and my boobs are sprouting. I'm hoping for a narrower waist and wider hips. To what end, I have no idea. I often worry that this whole thing might be a BIG MISTAKE, but I guess we'll see.