[The First Aria]

I don't know if I want to stop after a month , let alone can

when my wife came out of hospital mid November 2 years ago, she said to me "you have until the New year to be yourself uninterupted, we`re not going anywhere and no one`s coming round" so I did!

by December the 6`th I`d changed my name and gone full-time!  

Eventually you just get Soooo tired of hiding and having to take off nail polish and get changed real quick because someone decided to pop round, and the heartbreak going back to drab every single time you`re "forced" to be fake again. you get to a point where it hurts less to be yourself that it does to be fake.

I`v got a feeling that after a month, you may very well decide Not to go back. The neat thing is that When you make that decision it`s a Huge weight off your mind, and you then focus on making it work, at this point you`ve pretty much already Won!  xx

I agree with you Katie.  But it's a little different for me.  Somedays when I "dress" I don't feel like anyone is looking at me much differently than in drab.  I'm not sure if that is good or bad.  I think HRT has reshaped me enough and since women are allowed to "cross dress" more than "guys" it don't really matter to me.  I mean, there are some days in drab, I get Ma'amed as well as when I'm dressed.  It might be to what degree I am dressed.

I haven't gotten to the point of wearing more than a nice blouse with blue jeans or dress slacks yet tho. (no skirt or dresses in public yet) Although my wife has helped me recently to pick out a couple of 3" booties to wear in public, I've only 1x done so.

I am feeling more and more comfortable being either in drab or dressed each day.  But since I am not interested in living femme full time, I feel I am at the right point right now.