[Wishful]

Something to keep in mind is a little mentioned thing called an estrogen "high". Once you adapt to the estrogen in your system you seem to be on a mild high, you generally feel great, a mildly overall euphoria feeling. I find this hard to explain but you just do. Maybe its a combination of the feminine side of you and the feeling that you are finally doing what you have wanted to do all your life. Along with this, feminine things will start to appeal to you. I have found that things like doing my nails gives me satisfaction that before would not have. I like lipstick, same color as my lips so it doesn't attract attention, and other little things. I am almost at my goal in breast size and I am already questioning whether I want to stop there. Andy described it as a gremlin whispering in your ear,"go on, go for more!". It really does feel that way. This is almost an addiction to estrogen. I have taken a couple of breaks along the way and I did not like the Me that I changed to. I was very irritable and quick to anger, among other less desirable traits. My wife didn't like that "me" either. We both agreed that I should resume the PM to moderate my personality. I did and I am happy with the resulting change back to easy going. The difference is a big one. I think that after being on PM a long time, when you go back to testosterone, the male characteristics are amplified, stronger than before. I did not stay off long enough to see if this is temporary or if it is a more permanent personality change. This stuff is powerful. it changes you physically and mentally, even me at age 61. So when you start down this road, remember it's a one way street and very hard to get off of!

One comment I would like to add. If you are not married yet, how will you explain the "girls" on your chest? May you be blessed with a wife like mine, she likes my girls and when she plays with them, well, lets just say I should have done this a long time ago.