30-05-2018, 09:35 PM
I was going to post about this earlier, but I didn't because I didn't want to subject others to my negativity. However, I had another appointment with my doctor today and felt another wave of emotional distress.
I don't know for sure if she's transgender since she passes reasonably well, but due to the context of meeting her as a doctor who treats trans patients and some little things I would be surprised if she was cis.
Anyway, she is pretty thin (which doesn't really bother me much), but today she was wearing a short top with leggings and I noticed she has a really nice, round booty. She's not conventionally attractive (which would make me feel even worse), but the amazing hips/waist ratio is quite desirable.
I really feel horrible for feeling this way. I should be happy for others success, right? And I mean it's not like she's that fortunate since she's trans. Yeah, she's married, passes, has a good job (doctor) so it's certainly better than the average transwoman. I've also spent less time in these forums since seeing people here also makes me feel bad.
I don't know for sure if she's transgender since she passes reasonably well, but due to the context of meeting her as a doctor who treats trans patients and some little things I would be surprised if she was cis.
Anyway, she is pretty thin (which doesn't really bother me much), but today she was wearing a short top with leggings and I noticed she has a really nice, round booty. She's not conventionally attractive (which would make me feel even worse), but the amazing hips/waist ratio is quite desirable.
I really feel horrible for feeling this way. I should be happy for others success, right? And I mean it's not like she's that fortunate since she's trans. Yeah, she's married, passes, has a good job (doctor) so it's certainly better than the average transwoman. I've also spent less time in these forums since seeing people here also makes me feel bad.