Having gendered thoughts so often isn`t actually Normal hun, it`s what we get Used to, sure! but it`s not "Normal" 
another thing that some can fall into the trap of, is to think that Women feel a certain way, either in themselves or about the clothes they wear etc...
the truth is they don`t feel anytjing really, its just Normal feelings, there rarely a genderised idea attached, it`s more of just a knowing. sometimes our dysphoria can Project ideas onto women that simple aren`t there in reality, we don`t really feel anything about wearing a bra or knickers anymore than we feel about our socks! in fact bra`s are a bit of a drag sometimes, and rarely something to look forwards to putting on, same with stocking or tights (yuck).
this is not the idea a dysphoric male bodied person has though, but the Truth is, there nothing there in reality to actually feel, it`s the releif of the dysphoria that feels nice.
a bit like a smoker adicted to cigarettes, they don`t enjoy the cigarettes as such, but rather the releif of the withdrawl effects when they Don`t have one (or go a long time without).
this may be different for people with a clothes fetish though? I have no idea.
I`m on the right dose of HRT, and I`m not aware of any "girl feelings" at all, I just feel like me, gendered feelings rarely even feature in my life now, I`m a woman because I am, I don`t know how I know, I just do and it`s not because of any regular feelings I have, it`s just something you Know.
I hope that makes some kind of sense, it`s a hard thing to word really. xx
another thing that some can fall into the trap of, is to think that Women feel a certain way, either in themselves or about the clothes they wear etc...
the truth is they don`t feel anytjing really, its just Normal feelings, there rarely a genderised idea attached, it`s more of just a knowing. sometimes our dysphoria can Project ideas onto women that simple aren`t there in reality, we don`t really feel anything about wearing a bra or knickers anymore than we feel about our socks! in fact bra`s are a bit of a drag sometimes, and rarely something to look forwards to putting on, same with stocking or tights (yuck).
this is not the idea a dysphoric male bodied person has though, but the Truth is, there nothing there in reality to actually feel, it`s the releif of the dysphoria that feels nice.
a bit like a smoker adicted to cigarettes, they don`t enjoy the cigarettes as such, but rather the releif of the withdrawl effects when they Don`t have one (or go a long time without).
this may be different for people with a clothes fetish though? I have no idea.
I`m on the right dose of HRT, and I`m not aware of any "girl feelings" at all, I just feel like me, gendered feelings rarely even feature in my life now, I`m a woman because I am, I don`t know how I know, I just do and it`s not because of any regular feelings I have, it`s just something you Know.
I hope that makes some kind of sense, it`s a hard thing to word really. xx