Whilst I`m fully aware there are differences between everyone onder the whole Transgender umberalla, I`m more specifically concerned here about the differences between Transsexuals, in Particular the Medical psychopharmachological aspects.
as stated in that article and also other places, there is a reocurring theme that i (also a Transsexual) do Not follow, Namely that taking E lowers the "urge to dress".
In My case it did no such thing, I didn`t start wearing the propper clothes until After I started E, there was no Lessening of the dysphoria, just an end to the constant lilness I`v felt since puberty. like blocking T unlocked the gates of hell and set me free, and taking E unlocked the gates of heaven and let me in. it lit a fire in me, and for the first time since I was a little Girl I actually felt Well, and Normal, and happy and balanced.
This runs contary to the whole "Taking E stopped me cross dressing" theme.
Taking E was the Keystone for me, the final peice in my jigsaw, that`s why I had this tremendous feeling that my brain was shouting "Yay!!! you finally figured it out!". I unlocked me, it helped me remember who I Really was, it Certainly didn`t Dull anything down!
so why is My experience as a trassexual Different to that of Other transsexuals? (not CDs, fetishists, or any other part of our spectrum, just transsexuals).
OK, so Why am I wondering about this? well it`s quite simple really, One day I will sit in front of a man that will have the power to decide if I`m a transsexual or not and whether I get treated (namely SRS, and Legal Hormones).
he will base his decision (my fate) on the answers I give to a load of inappropriate questions he will ask me.
if I give the "wrong" answers, then it`s Game-Over.
so I want to know if my experiance as a transsexual is Valid, or if there is something wrong with me since I don`t seem to follow the party line!
I didn`t want to put my reason on here as it`s got me in tears now (such is my concern), but maybe it`ll help you understand Why I`m asking, and why it`s important to me to find an answer. xx
as stated in that article and also other places, there is a reocurring theme that i (also a Transsexual) do Not follow, Namely that taking E lowers the "urge to dress".
In My case it did no such thing, I didn`t start wearing the propper clothes until After I started E, there was no Lessening of the dysphoria, just an end to the constant lilness I`v felt since puberty. like blocking T unlocked the gates of hell and set me free, and taking E unlocked the gates of heaven and let me in. it lit a fire in me, and for the first time since I was a little Girl I actually felt Well, and Normal, and happy and balanced.
This runs contary to the whole "Taking E stopped me cross dressing" theme.
Taking E was the Keystone for me, the final peice in my jigsaw, that`s why I had this tremendous feeling that my brain was shouting "Yay!!! you finally figured it out!". I unlocked me, it helped me remember who I Really was, it Certainly didn`t Dull anything down!
so why is My experience as a trassexual Different to that of Other transsexuals? (not CDs, fetishists, or any other part of our spectrum, just transsexuals).
OK, so Why am I wondering about this? well it`s quite simple really, One day I will sit in front of a man that will have the power to decide if I`m a transsexual or not and whether I get treated (namely SRS, and Legal Hormones).
he will base his decision (my fate) on the answers I give to a load of inappropriate questions he will ask me.
if I give the "wrong" answers, then it`s Game-Over.
so I want to know if my experiance as a transsexual is Valid, or if there is something wrong with me since I don`t seem to follow the party line!
I didn`t want to put my reason on here as it`s got me in tears now (such is my concern), but maybe it`ll help you understand Why I`m asking, and why it`s important to me to find an answer. xx