(19-01-2018, 06:32 PM)Shirazmn Wrote: Julie is right. It's the difference between doing it as a fetish and doing it because that's who you are.
My dressing has a fetish/sexual background. Herbs and HRT kill the libido, so I feel like doing it less when I have less testosterone in my body.
You, I assume, are a girl inside. So you have never been crossdressing because you were just expressing who you actually are.
Sorry, but I totally disagree that it is just a fetish ( for me anyway).
I believe that my biochemistry has my brain programmed towards the feminine end of the spectrum, (but not all the way) but my body is unable to provide the hormones my brain thinks it needs. Cross-dressing is a way to at least partially satisfy that need to be feminine, but as soon as I give it PM/E, the need for dressing goes away because my hormone levels are more balanced and in tune with my brains programming.
I think that for Katie her brain needs E, full stop. Mine and others like me need some, but not a full blown dose. Too much and the conflict with T goes the other way and really screws my brain.