[Shawna-lee]

Thanks Poly for that. I think to a certain degree I'm still in denial - I feel like I could easily just take feminizing hormones and carry on living and presenting as a male. I guess it's an unrealistic notion though, and what I see on this forum seems to confirm it - once it get's you it doesn't let go. I have even considered if I'm a woman 'trapped' in a man's body or a man 'trapped' in a woman's mind. Would it not be easier to align my mind with my body instead of the other way around?

I have been a Boudoir photographer for the last several years (hobbyist), and I realized a short while ago that I actually have been somewhat envious of the women I photograph. Basically what you have experienced observing other women. When I see their naked bodies, the beautiful lingerie, the charm, femininity, and the mannerisms, I imagine that it's me and I look gorgeous ...... then I see myself in a mirror and .........