22-05-2017, 03:31 PM
Your feeling exactly how I feel myself. I am not full time, in male mode I look and pass as people expect me to be. So, in the begining I hated looking at myself in the mirror when i crossdressed. I looked like a weird fool, a pervert, it disgusted me. But in my head I had this noise, this noise has been there since I was 4. After a life time of looking, and acting as people expected me to be ( something I got quite good at btw ), the noise was starting to consume me. In my later years, loosing my hair was starting to effect me too. As google is a great resource, i started looking up herbal remedies for hair loss. It turns out most herbal remidies also carry a risk of breast growth in males, that started me off on NBE. A few more google searches found this awesome site. The stronger herbs eventually helped quiten that noise ( for a while at least ) the added breast growth was a bonus.
Your not alone in your feelings, SRS is not something i feel i just HAVE to do. I have a few transfriends that feel the same, and others that have either had it done or are going for it. My support network is very open, no one calls anyone out for not feeling like you need SRS.
As for my first paragraph above, i go out more and more as Jannet, i even flew to the UK and spent the whole week as my true self, and was openly excepted every where i went. If anyone noticed, no one said a word, or indicated they realized i was not female. So as pointed out by another poster, most of this not passing is in our heads.
We have to understand the limitations of our bodies. My older male body is never going to pass as the 20 year old that i see in my head. I can however blend in well with older females.
Your not alone in your feelings, SRS is not something i feel i just HAVE to do. I have a few transfriends that feel the same, and others that have either had it done or are going for it. My support network is very open, no one calls anyone out for not feeling like you need SRS.
As for my first paragraph above, i go out more and more as Jannet, i even flew to the UK and spent the whole week as my true self, and was openly excepted every where i went. If anyone noticed, no one said a word, or indicated they realized i was not female. So as pointed out by another poster, most of this not passing is in our heads.
We have to understand the limitations of our bodies. My older male body is never going to pass as the 20 year old that i see in my head. I can however blend in well with older females.