07-03-2017, 07:18 PM
Dear Megan,
I think I understand what you mean. Although I have not consciously decided to transition I realised only recently that I have been accepting it as an option since I knew it was possible, it means since I was 13 or so... This desire has been with me since then. For me it was really fascinating to found that I was able to suppress such desire for so long. And I also realised that for last year and half I have been subconsciously working to make it happen - why else would I slowly build full all-purpose feminine wardrobe, train my voice, visit gender therapist etc.? So while I haven't made conscious decision to transition and I don't know if I end up doing it, my tipping point was to realise that I am slowly moving exactly in that direction. And I know that if I was able to solve some practical issues at work and I was not feeling responsible towards my girlfriend I would very probably do it. Well, I'll see what else I am going to learn during the therapy...
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Poly
I think I understand what you mean. Although I have not consciously decided to transition I realised only recently that I have been accepting it as an option since I knew it was possible, it means since I was 13 or so... This desire has been with me since then. For me it was really fascinating to found that I was able to suppress such desire for so long. And I also realised that for last year and half I have been subconsciously working to make it happen - why else would I slowly build full all-purpose feminine wardrobe, train my voice, visit gender therapist etc.? So while I haven't made conscious decision to transition and I don't know if I end up doing it, my tipping point was to realise that I am slowly moving exactly in that direction. And I know that if I was able to solve some practical issues at work and I was not feeling responsible towards my girlfriend I would very probably do it. Well, I'll see what else I am going to learn during the therapy...
.Poly