Thanks for the kind words!!

Yep, the search for some trans-specific or trans-friendly dating app is on my to-do list, just right there at the bottom.

This is the result of almost a year on herbals. What I meant was 6 or 7 weeks of dosing after the most recent break. Thing is, even a short break causes me a substantial loss of fullness and sensation so the subsequent growth seems almost miraculous.
Not sure what to say about the function. It's definitelly impaired, but the "damage" is rather in the head than down there if you get what I mean. It could still work, but I just can't be bothered. But my feelings regarding this are very much in flux, it's really hard to generalize in a meaningful way.
I guess Grindr is popular everywhere. Tried Scruff as well, full of beefy hairy guys... who want beefy hairy guys. How sad!  

Do I regret I'm getting what I wished for? Don't think so, I'm just scared of the slowly emerging definitiveness of it all. I could go back if held at a gunpoint, but there is just noone who would point that gun at me, so I will have to go through it all. There's almost some elegant, unescapable logic in it...
Also, these semi-histrionic posts of mine are sort of therapy, an opportunity to contemplate and reflect, sometimes on the worst case scenarios. I'm not prone to vent emotions or complain in real life, so I gladly overdo it here.

What to do Poly? As Bobbi said: look forward not back. I would add: while trying to stay true to yourself. Acknowledging and accepting that "yourself" is changing beyond your control. Wild!!

Anyways, I really admire some people here who just set their goal and get down to work on it without much fuss.