[polymorphis]

Hi Poly!  

If someone had a magic wand....  The best situation would be zapp me into my past body. (football, baseball player build)  Then when of a mind, about 1/2 the time, zap me into female body that is graceful, not too skinny, has decent curves and a reasonable face.

My GD and Therapist both ask me where I thought I might be on the scale of 1 - 10.  One being total male 100% of the time, or being a 10, total 100% female all the time..  Right now, if I had to put a # to the way I think right now, not knowing how well the feminization will go.  (meaning not just a little fuller boobs)  I would have to say about a 7, maybe just short.

I don't have to worry about wanting more kids...  Too freaking old now, not a real sexual being either(maybe for the same reason?)  So, I don't have all the hangups say a person in their 20's or 30" might have about E.D. and Infertility.  

I want breasts and rear, that when I do feel like "dressing up", it appears I actually belong in them.  

Hope that gives you an idea of my "End Game".

Thanks for the answer, Aria. I think I understand, because I started at approximately same position. I also wanted just to have more shapely and feminine body. But slowly I begun to honestly question myself. The fact is that I have been always tempted by the psychological aspects of feminisation at least as strong as by physical so I might be more prone to slip...

I could be wrong here but rating a 7 on the 1 to 10 is quite high!
when I forst started 12 months ago I wasn`t interested in growing bewbs, all I wanted was the Mental effects, that`s All I wanted Hand On Heart!
I would have perhaps rated myself as a 2 back then, I went through being Gender Fluid for a bit and that didn`t fit, then I suspected Bi-Gender and wore that for a long while (I think you`re probably at this stage too), and for me That didn`t fit, so I bit the bullet and accepted my original Medical diagnosis of being Transsexual.
but oddly That doesn`t seem to fit so well anymore either, I just feel 100% Female and not at all Trans* anything.

It`s been termed as a "slippery slope" or a "Pandoras Box" for a reason LOL

E will break down any resistance you have and you won`t even feel or notice it happening, and by the time you do, you won`t even care!

so all these things You want now as a "Man" wont be the same things you`ll want later as you wont be the same person you are now making those choices.

it`s very hard to explain.

Katie, this is really very powerful post! I am not taking genuine estrogen, but I can relate a lot. However, I think it is not only about pharmacological action of substances we take. I think that for some of us (and I stress SOME ) the whole process inevitably leads to kind of "awakening".

Eeeeekkk
Scary

Are you reading this poli ?

Julie

Oh Julie, you know me too well. And you know that I am really slippery and something like this won't scare me, rather arouse my curiosity.

LOL, Katie's post and your reaction somehow reminds me of this scene from Star Wars :

Fall to the Dark side

Poly