[polymorphis]

Pansy-Mae> Thank you for the kind feedback. I know that going either way is not "wrong", but one thing is to be intellectually aware of the fact and "feeling" and "accepting" is something different. It is a gradual process. But I can tell one thing - completely neglect my feminine side and go fully back feels not right. It would be similar to hypermasculinisation some TS do trying to deny their true self. And I agree with you that suppressing something and push it into subconscious could be destructive long term. I strive for the individuation and not suppression, denial and fragmentation. And I think that this urge to learn more about ourselves is a challenge but also a gift all transgender people share.

Jannet>    ... well ... I am not decided to "go". Right now, I just want to learn more about myself and my motives.

Julie> Misty's post really is impressive. But that being said, can we really tell who succumb to an illusion? It indeed might be all of us. But as stress from "normal life" can push a crossdresser towards thoughts about transition, another kind of stress connected to feminisation can push a transgendered individual towards suppression. And health related issues can be very stressful. Now, I am not telling it is this case, but what I try to emphasize is that we should be careful about over-generalisation.

However, that post only reassured me that having an appointment with a therapist is a good idea. Too bad I have to wait almost 3 months...

Poly