20-11-2016, 05:09 PM
Poly --
Each person's journey, and desires, are different. I started my journey three or four years ago and, like you, I had late-onset GD - although looking back now I can see many signs that should have made it obvious that I was trans... but they never really clicked. I stumbled onto this forum and spent a while using PM, BO, etc. My goal then was to get some peace of mind, perhaps some breast growth, and live with this other part of me in the shadows.
I started HRT about a year and a half ago. I began the process of coming out to everyone in my life six months after that. Another six months and that process was complete. A couple months ago I made the transition to female, and go tomorrow to consult with a surgeon about FFS. So far I've been met with nothing but love and acceptance from everyone in my life. What was once terrifying is now mundane.
While I still have a lot of worries and doubts, one thing is clear. I could not have anticipated the outcome, or my journey. Along the way I made steps forward, I made steps backwards. The times I was most at ease was when I stopped worrying about where I was going and lived in the moment, doing what felt right at the time. The paralyzing worry and endless self-questioning only ever served to make me miserable. I think a certain amount is healthy, but it's easy to make that entire day.
Life is short, do whatever makes you happy - discard the rest. Do your best to live without regrets.
Each person's journey, and desires, are different. I started my journey three or four years ago and, like you, I had late-onset GD - although looking back now I can see many signs that should have made it obvious that I was trans... but they never really clicked. I stumbled onto this forum and spent a while using PM, BO, etc. My goal then was to get some peace of mind, perhaps some breast growth, and live with this other part of me in the shadows.
I started HRT about a year and a half ago. I began the process of coming out to everyone in my life six months after that. Another six months and that process was complete. A couple months ago I made the transition to female, and go tomorrow to consult with a surgeon about FFS. So far I've been met with nothing but love and acceptance from everyone in my life. What was once terrifying is now mundane.
While I still have a lot of worries and doubts, one thing is clear. I could not have anticipated the outcome, or my journey. Along the way I made steps forward, I made steps backwards. The times I was most at ease was when I stopped worrying about where I was going and lived in the moment, doing what felt right at the time. The paralyzing worry and endless self-questioning only ever served to make me miserable. I think a certain amount is healthy, but it's easy to make that entire day.
Life is short, do whatever makes you happy - discard the rest. Do your best to live without regrets.