15-11-2016, 10:49 PM
I finished it :\
Definitely challenging. I think there's a lot of truth in what she wrote, but at the same time I resent her vindictiveness.
She may be right. But I don't entirely fit her model of a transsexual Sister. I share a lot of traits with them for sure, but it's still a challenge for me to "woman up" in many of the ways she describes.
I think I share a lot of her feelings of exclusivity, but I'm not entirely sure that they are the right way to see things. I really want to be more open and inclusive, because I really want to be included, like really really.
I think the problem is that life isn't really like a story that has a clear moral that you can just share with others. The lessons learned from a life like the one this author has are plainly contradictory when you look at them all at the same time.
Tell people or you risk being murdered. Tell people and you are branded a "tranny" forever.
Get GRS, if you don't want it you aren't really a woman. GRS doesn't do anything, you can do it to a watermelon and it's still a watermelon.
All these things are technically true, but fail to fully describe what many of us experience. It just feels so exclusive.
Like I'm pretty sure that I was born with a female brain structure, but I was perfectly happy growing up and doing male things and not uncomfortable doing girl games either. I didn't really feel wrong in my body until puberty started.
This author might look at this piece of information and dismiss me, but many genetic girls have similar stories, such as tomboys. I loved some boy stuff, but I didn't really know what being a boy meant, I just knew that I was ok hanging out with my brother but hated being shut out by my sisters.
Every step that my body took towards masculinity was painful to me, and I didn't understand why.
What if I'm wrong though? What if I had a perfectly normal brain structure at birth? Is it still acceptable for me to see myself as a woman, and want to be accepted in society as a woman?
I feel like this person's answer would be no. It doesn't matter that I want to put in the work, it doesn't matter that thinking of myself as male is painful and wrong in a deep part of my soul.
I may never know for sure if I legitimately was "born this way" or not. But I'm not going to risk my hope and chances to have a meaningful life just because I cannot claim to know about something that happened before I can even remember.
The fact is that being a man doesn't work for me. I can't accept that that is my future. I don't accept that I am a fake woman either.
Yes, it was easy for me to get hormones. Yes, I surround myself with encouraging positive people who won't reject me. Yes, at one point this was "just a sexual thing" to me.
No, I'm not a man who will soon buy a vagina for the wrong reasons. I'm a girl who temporarily has a penis.
Definitely challenging. I think there's a lot of truth in what she wrote, but at the same time I resent her vindictiveness.
She may be right. But I don't entirely fit her model of a transsexual Sister. I share a lot of traits with them for sure, but it's still a challenge for me to "woman up" in many of the ways she describes.
I think I share a lot of her feelings of exclusivity, but I'm not entirely sure that they are the right way to see things. I really want to be more open and inclusive, because I really want to be included, like really really.
I think the problem is that life isn't really like a story that has a clear moral that you can just share with others. The lessons learned from a life like the one this author has are plainly contradictory when you look at them all at the same time.
Tell people or you risk being murdered. Tell people and you are branded a "tranny" forever.
Get GRS, if you don't want it you aren't really a woman. GRS doesn't do anything, you can do it to a watermelon and it's still a watermelon.
All these things are technically true, but fail to fully describe what many of us experience. It just feels so exclusive.
Like I'm pretty sure that I was born with a female brain structure, but I was perfectly happy growing up and doing male things and not uncomfortable doing girl games either. I didn't really feel wrong in my body until puberty started.
This author might look at this piece of information and dismiss me, but many genetic girls have similar stories, such as tomboys. I loved some boy stuff, but I didn't really know what being a boy meant, I just knew that I was ok hanging out with my brother but hated being shut out by my sisters.
Every step that my body took towards masculinity was painful to me, and I didn't understand why.
What if I'm wrong though? What if I had a perfectly normal brain structure at birth? Is it still acceptable for me to see myself as a woman, and want to be accepted in society as a woman?
I feel like this person's answer would be no. It doesn't matter that I want to put in the work, it doesn't matter that thinking of myself as male is painful and wrong in a deep part of my soul.
I may never know for sure if I legitimately was "born this way" or not. But I'm not going to risk my hope and chances to have a meaningful life just because I cannot claim to know about something that happened before I can even remember.
The fact is that being a man doesn't work for me. I can't accept that that is my future. I don't accept that I am a fake woman either.
Yes, it was easy for me to get hormones. Yes, I surround myself with encouraging positive people who won't reject me. Yes, at one point this was "just a sexual thing" to me.
No, I'm not a man who will soon buy a vagina for the wrong reasons. I'm a girl who temporarily has a penis.