24-10-2016, 05:37 PM
(24-10-2016, 05:03 PM)Sofia Lauren Bunny Wrote: Re Lotus - Yeah, it was accidentally slipped out about 3 months ago. LOL. Also I am sure that I made mention of it on a post here or there regarding the switch to HRT. Regarding the support group, I am worried there wouldn't be a whole lot of attendance regarding TG support, but part of me has some hope seeing how they are starting a new section. I too would rather find someone closer to my own situation, I guess time will tell. I feel like I have been saying that a lot lately.
Re Jannet - I am sure my wife has her suspicions, but none of them have been confirmed. Every time I try and broach the subject, things do no go very well and I end up feeling very down and or upset. Part of my hoping to find local support is to see how I can possibly handle or deal with this situation better. Unfortunately I keep submerging myself deeper and deeper, who knows if I have created more damage. The other part of all this, I am still not sure where I fit in all of this. I love how I look and feel as a female, but it's not something I feel I would want 100% of the time. Same goes for my male appearance. How can I properly explain something to someone when I don't even fully understand it myself. I am sure she would think I am just being wishy washy and that this all in my head and I would need to stop this RIGHT NOW. Trust me when I say I am 99.7% sure that is very close to how the conversation would go.
Here Sofia, take a look at this. This is somewhat how my therapist described me.
http://www.willsworld.org/twospiritq-a.html Or Here http://indiancountrytodaymedianetwork.com/2016/01/23/two-spirits-one-heart-five-genders
She said that what she studied in college, was not so much that they were homosexual a lot of times, but that they covered the whole spectrum. Also, they were often considered healers or War Council members.
As to the support group that I attended. All of them were in different stages of full transition, which is not my goal. So, other than some of the contacts they provided me with, they were not what I was looking for.