[spanky (aka Lola)]

Wow!  Quite a tale, Sofia.  I am so sorry you had that experience.  I know this is not particularly helpful, but it could have been worse.  I hope no significant health problems that result.  

I support your process of thinking about what unfolded and what you can do to ensure that it doesn't happen again.  This instance seems very close to a sexual assault, and it makes more sense to blame the perpetrator than the victim.  At the same time, one needs to be careful not to let herself become a victim.  Becoming a woman requires a lot more than changing the body, I guess.

Enough lecturing!  Be well, learn from it, enjoy who you are becoming.